There is good and there is bad, there is negative and there is positive. The more I experience desire in my life and the clearer I am on what I want, the greater the contrast is. I am remembering more and more each day that I get to choose the lens in which I see my world and what I choose is who I become. I am embracing this truth and my life feels so very blessed.
The last few days I have been very mindful of the delicate balance between my ego and my soul. Embracing the experiences as ego opens me to new lessons and moves me to another level of appreciating who I am in this world of mine. While at the same time allowing my soul to fully come alive, to open my heart to all that is being offered to be, to guide me and lead this journey I call my life.
With each new day, I am experiencing a greater awareness of my ego’s attempts (sometimes successfully) of leading me into the victim mindset. And lately when those moments arise I can sit quietly and feel as my soul gently reminds me I am the creator of my reality.
This week my truck got stuck in a snow bank. It took me 30 minutes to shovel my tires out. I heard my ego question ‘why me?’ But I was not the victim of bad luck (or maybe more accurately of my own laziness for only having shoveled a very narrow path out my driveway). Instead I grab warm gloves and a shovel. While shoveling I laughed watching my youngest attempt to push my truck out of the snow (while the truck was in park so was never going to move). Then the two of us laughed at how silly we looked with the truck half out the driveway, me in dress clothes, and the both of us with tiny kid shovels. We both recognized the beauty of the sunny morning and how the sun made the icicles sparkle. We knew we were going to be very late, we were both a little tired from shoveling and my work clothes a little dirty… but we enjoyed the time and took the lesson presented.
This week my small 20 lb dog reminded me he still thinks he needs to be my protector. On one of our walks he growled like an aggressive beast at a gentle soul as it passed us by. My ego chimed in ‘your dog is a reflection of you’, my soul said ‘have patience, each of you is doing the best you can’. As my ego was silenced my walk was refreshing and delightful and my pup’s loving eyes spoke of his gratitude.
I am learning to accept the gifts that this world offers me. As I embrace ease and flow slowly those bumps just become part of the journey. Slowly the bumps become less like barriers and obstacles and become more a part of the scenery, the beauty, the very things that make my life so rich, so delicious, so… MINE!
© Kathy Bazinet 2014