My stomach tosses and turns. I question why I do this to myself. Why am I constantly finding new ways to challenge and face my fears. My nerves are so bad I worry I might toss my breakfast. In my attempt to calm myself, my mind races to practiced self talk,
you love these challenges;
with each new challenge you accept you come to know and love your life on a deeper level;
enjoy the journey in front of you today; and
change these feelings of extreme nervousness to blissful feelings of anticipation.
Moments before our Edge Walk adventure, a walk along the outer edge of the CNTower at 356 meters above magnificent Toronto, I am still unsettled. Despite the unsettled feelings I am also feeling grounded in my truth:
my life gets sweeter and sweeter every time I face and walk through my fears;
my reality is merely a result of what I create; and
discomfort in my life has been a positive sign of my growth.
There is a difference between danger and fear. I have a healthy respect for danger… today I am perfectly safe! Today there is no danger – just fear. Fear we meet again! Face to face with another challenge. Today you have pulled out all the good stuff in an attempt to rattle me. But fear you are losing your grip on me. Each time we meet, each time I face you, each time you challenge me, I am learning to embrace you, seeing you for what you are, and I walk away the VICTOR with FREEDOM as my reward!
@ Kathy Bazinet 2014